My Story | Susan Cowan
When I was diagnosed with breast cancer in April of 2011, I had been unemployed for two years. During that time, I worked part time as a substitute teacher, all the while hoping and praying for the teaching position I knew God had for me. I was discouraged and depressed, and I desperately wanted to relieve some of the financial burden from my new husband. He was valiantly providing for our newly blended family, without complaining, but it was difficult to make ends meet each month.
What I didn't know was that my unemployment was part of God's plan to take care of the cancer. Because I had no insurance, I qualified for assistance through the Bridge Breast Network, a charitable organization that helps women in my circumstances. They have surgeons who volunteer their services and make arrangements with hospitals to cover their costs. The surgeon recommended by my OB/GYN just happened to be the one assigned to my case!
Once surgery was done, The Bridge and Moncrief Cancer Institute facilitated a fast track application for breast/ovarian cancer Medicaid. I didn't even know such a thing existed! I would not have qualified for the program had I been employed or insured. Medicaid paid all my oncology visits, treatments, and prescriptions. In July, 2013, I was finally offered the teaching job God had for me. I began teaching prekindergarten in Fort Worth ISD in August, and was eligible for insurance in September, just as my Medicaid was set to either renew or expire. I was no longer eligible to renew!
Through it all, I could feel myself lifted up through prayer from friends and their friends around the world. I was constantly floating in a cloud of prayer. One friend told me that she had asked another friend on mission in Africa to have their church pray for me! My husband, children, sister, brother, in-laws, nieces, nephews, church family and countless friends walked beside me and never let me have a pity party. :) In fact, when my sister referred to me as Job, I went and read that book.
Here's what I came away with:"He will yet fill your mouth with laughter, and your lips with shouts of joy." Job 8:21"You will surely forget your trouble, recalling it only as waters gone by." Job 11-16"I know that my redeemer lives, and that in the end he will stand on the earth." Job 19:25
I also have a deeply intimate connection with Jesus as he prayed in Gethsemane. My joy and peace comes from knowing that because the cup was not passed from Him, I would not suffer alone as He did. I have prayed "pass this cup from me," and the answer was "No." Thank God, He stayed with me through it all, and always will.
Looking back, I see God’s fingerprints all over the place. Everything worked together for His glory and my healing. I am humbled to see that He cares for me!